11.27.2012

the road to recovery



Today I am absolutely thrilled to be over at A Beautiful Mess today! Described as a "safe space for honesty and inspiration," the blog is based on the book A Beautiful Mess by Kristin Ritzau. I actually have the privilege of knowing Kristin "in real life" through my alma-mater! I believe so much in her message of self-care and encouragement, and being able to write for her blog was a true pleasure. 

The theme for Fall was "Letting Go" and honestly I do not think it was a coincidence that God had me reflect on this topic. I am the first one to admit that I am a control-freak and a perfectionist. Anyone else? Letting go is not something that comes naturally to me. In fact, it scares me. I hope you'll hop on over to A Beautiful Mess and read my story about overcoming my need for control and how my faith has put me on the road to recovery. 

Here's a little preview:

My name is Alyssa, and I am a control-freak. There. I said it.

I admit to craving control. I confess that I am afraid of failing, and I’m afraid of people knowing that I failed. Believe me when I say that I get anxiety if things aren’t exactly the way I envisioned them. If it all could just go my way, then I would be fine. If it all could just work out how I think it should, then I could be happy.

Sure, I have faith. But most days my faith is fighting for space in a heart that is unwilling to yield to the Divine. I don’t want to relinquish control to things unseen. I’m more comfortable weaving the threads of my own life because, no matter how tangled they get, at least I wouldn’t be disappointing anyone but myself.
If you'd like, head on over and read the rest of The Road to Recovery and please let me know what you think!


I'm so curious to hear from the other control-freaks out there. How do you find your need for control impacting your daily life? Your happiness? Your faith? How have you been able to "let go"? Any advice for other self-professed control-freaks?

If you are visiting from A Beautiful Mess, welcome to All Things Beautiful! While you're here, learn a little bit more about me. I'm glad you came to visit and I hope you stick around! Leave a comment and let me know you stopped by!